12 Potential Reasons I Didn’t List My Mistakes

I guess that will be my 300th post but I still have 35 days till then so for now why I don’t want to do so. I don’t have ten reasons for this, well I don’t know that but I’ll assume and theorize to fill in twelve entries.

  1. Embarrassment – Obvious but true. I don’t like pointing out how I was wrong, but at the moment it’s probably the best thing for me to do.
  2. I would rather hide my mistakes- when I realize that I made a mistake I either point it out or edit the post to correct my mistake but with the format of my blog I have trouble believing that many people go back to read my old posts so I should be more clear with them.
  3. I’m too lazy to reread and re-examine my old posts – I write this for a non-existent audience, but also for myself. I don’t like rereading my old posts when I feel I haven’t been taking my own advice; I don’t like rereading my old posts since I feel I was lazy or that they were poorly written, and I don’t like revisiting my old posts because some of them seem to be better than what I write today. It makes me feel like I’m not improving. (which very well may be the case. Maybe if I went over them a bit more…)
  4. I have incredibly high standards that I don’t live up to. So I don’t like revisiting my old posts or listing my mistakes because I am somewhat disappointed in the way I represented my ideas and would rather forget they existed.
  5. I tend to compromise on my posts – I have incredibly high standards. When I can’t live up to them I give up on standards entirely. This is okay when I didn’t notice my mistakes or imperfections but I know I have a more advanced view of what perfect is and I push things off until I can get there, then don’t have the time to create something whole.
  6. I don’t like to think of myself as lazy – And often laziness is the source of my mistakes. I don’t want to put in the effort to improve, but if I don’t improve, there is no point to this.
  7. I don’t like confronting my mistakes – It’s all well and good when I’m vague and indistinct but Pointing Them Out?
  8. I focus on humor – And I use the focus on humor or communication as a distraction instead of as something that enriches my communications. (I’m good at humor as something derived from context or parody but often fail when humor is its own purpose)
  9. Woe is me, is this what my efforts amount to? – And now I’m just waxing poetic.
  10. I like to think of myself as perfect – Don’t we all? know I know I’m not perfect, but I don’t need to go into detail, do I? (Yes I do but as always, not now.)
  11. Because I’m an expert at pushing things off – If you couldn’t tell, that’s why I gave myself a deadline, and If I don’t stick to it, I don’t deserve your attention.
  12. I don’t like to commit – And if I express my mistakes, I’m still committing to ideas. I’m actually so afraid of being wrong that I’m not being specific here. (humor, even failed humor, is often an avoidance mechanism, but since it is just often an avoidance mechanism, it may not be. See, I wasn’t wrong {or right in this case,} because I didn’t commit to the idea as being true.)

I didn’t post this yesterday because I didn’t have an internet connection when I finished writing this, and I didn’t notice that the website didn’t update.

2 comments

  1. I think you just fail to be generous with yourself. You’ve published 265 posts. That’s pretty obvious evidence of living into a commitment, and it’s crazy hard when you don’t think anyone is out there reading it.
    I don’t think we all look at ourselves as perfect, but we do have a tendency to think that our own thinking is more right than the thinking of others.
    As to deserving, I think it’s a bad word. What do people do to “deserve” attention, or love, or your time?
    I think it’s better to simply accept these things with grace and appreciation when they come to you, and to take care of your people as you see fit.

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