5 Reasons I Am Wrong

A mistake I often make, exaggerated.

After talking it through, Air Recycling is a stupid idea I couldn’t make something worthwhile out of. My understanding of the environment includes some conflicting ideas and understandings; so I’ll have to work through what I knew and what I just thought I knew on the subject so I won’t make any posts with it as the focus in a while especially since it often isn’t in line with the rest of the content on this page.
I need more post topics. For now, I share something both difficult and easy. I’ve been making a lot of claims, but I assume I know more than I actually do. I don’t always make these mistakes, but it’s better to be aware:

  1. I apply basic rules as universal constants – Well, this may be true in physics but directly applying the basic rules of physics is practically useless in biochemistry; language is full of exceptions to the rules, and some things I understood to be universal constants were but rules of thumb.
  2. I believe the things I make up – If it makes sense, I just fly with it. I try not to but the reason many of my recent posts have taken hypothetical forms is that I’ve been doing this too often so I needed a format in which it would be okay.
  3. I take my ideas as fact – think of something enough and it becomes indistinguishable from knowledge. We don’t store information as separate entities, we don’t have a special little folder for thinking about ideas or working through a problem using what we know; so sometimes when I dwell on my ideas for too long I take them for granted and continue onward.
  4. I learn from useful lies – Simplifications, metaphors, etc.
  5. I use and believe my own useful lies – I try to be precise in my speech, but I’m not yet so. I use useful lies to explain and to summarize, and sometimes they aren’t the most accurate. Now, if the person reading it takes the information the lie was meant to communicate and nothing else, it is good, but as soon as I try to build on the lie or explain further I overextend the arguments and create falsehoods.

    Because maybe – and sometimes when I go too far into a metaphorical I forget that some of the things I learned by extension are based on an unsure base.
    I lost coherency and I don’t want to make too many mistakes; so I’ll end this now and try to be back to form by tomorrow.

9 Things That Make A Difference

I’m pushing off my Permanent Skin Dye indefinitely because I couldn’t make any sense of it on my own so I’ll see If I can work on it with someone else and post it then. So here is a thought for today.

There isn’t a real theme to today’s post so I’ll do one of those vague here are 9 vauge pieces of advice here and try to make it worth it. I do do lists anyway so not doing this would be a waste.

  1. Researching Charities – So many charities are poorly run or are outright scams, many charities fail in their end goals because they lack funding and don’t get enough attention. Research charities before giving them your money, if you want to invest in a specific good than make sure your money is going to the charity that is most involved and helpful for that good. If you put in the time, you can also figure out what charities are most effective and which ones are run by well-intentioned idiots.
  2. Idiots Aren’t At Fault – People can be blamed for not thinking enough and can learn to be better if taught. But some people are unfortunate enough to be born stupid, and they can’t help it. Your anger doesn’t help anyone.
  3. An Untrained Conscience Makes Mistakes – We are prone to many biases such as recency bias and a sometimes subtle in-group preference. We aren’t born with perfect morals, and what we see as good is often picked up at a young age by imitating adults. So, unless we train ourselves to make difficult moral decisions or to have opinions on weighty subjects when faced with difficult decisions, we may make the wrong choice, or even worse, not see the choice at all.
  4. Life Is Hard – it is, even for people for whom life is easy, it would feel like it’s worth more if it is hard. It’s somewhat ironic many seek a better life where their lower needs are fulfilled, and they don’t have to suffer to meet them. (Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs and all that.) But those of us living in the first world kill ourselves more. Why? Because we give up on self-actualization as something both too difficult (it’s impossible we say) and because we seek contentment over completion.
  5. We Like Overcoming Challenges – well duh, but we don’t like taking them on. Sometimes doing something difficult just because it’s the right thing to do is for our own benefit. It’s a challenge for us to overcome, and it’s a positive influence we can have on the world.
  6. Way Up Consistently – I’m a bit of a hypocrite on this account, and you’ve probably heard it before, but getting enough sleep is one of the best things you can do for yourself. I don’t even have to tell you why but for the how? Here are a few ideas. Alarms to wake up consistently, open curtains to line up sleep hours with the sun, you’re probably in self-isolation, so you don’t have an excuse not to, and I should get on with this list so I’ll live it up to you.
  7. You Don’t Have To Do It – You say that because you chose or made a decision to go through with this course of action. Need is often tyrannical and so we will try and do as little as necessary. Want, desire, and willingness are all better than Have, or Need, if you want to get something complete.
  8. Be Precise In Your Speech – Lies can be both harmful and unsustainable in long term relationships, and misunderstandings can be just as bad. So be precise in your speech, communicate clear and complete statements or let it be known that you are communicating an incomplete idea, misunderstandings, and upset expectations are often causes of upset, and you probably want healthy relationships.
    (I fail at this, but I’m better at communication than I was a few years ago, and I’m officially autistic, so I still have some more work before I get there.)
  9. Break Expectations With Purpose – if you are communicating something important or something of value to yourself, don’t cheapen it by changing it to fit expectations of form or format. Breaking expectations often have a serious impact, and to do that, you usually have to set expectations first, but when doing so, let there be a reason and use the offputting nature to get your ideas to stick. Also, don’t let expectations cheapen what you are producing by adding token or lesser communications in order to make something that complies.

Who Cares?

I’ve been trying to come up with a topic for a post today. shooting down some stupid ideas or things I don’t know too much about starting things than backspacing but now I ask myself; Who cares? I hardly get any attention anyways, and I made this about exploring ideas so why do I worry about how it’ll look?
Well I’m done with worrying I said to myself tens of times, I’ll just write and see what comes out. So what will I write that seems simple, I don’t know enough about that, let me look elsewhere… Stop thinking me I’ve written over two hundred of these and at least 20 of them are good. Well I don’t know but they seem good to many heck more than half of these seem good to me but what do I know, only enough to try writing a daily blog with no consistent subject matter. And to try to compose a piece of music. And to try and write short stories. And to try and do some… All I do is try but I’m afraid of putting enough out there to succeed, I can’t bring out the willpower to do stuff badly. But I will dis-inhibit myself and all that. I want to be creative I want to actually create and nobody enjoys everything so I will tell this to myself again and hope I get at least a little bit better; just write put stuff out there, I have no reason to be afraid but since sometimes I am I will recognize it as a motivator and write anyways.

“Benefits” from being afraid

  1. Justified Procrastination – It’s not good enough I need to think it through…
  2. No Risk – I can’t do it yet there is no benefit in trying something like this…
  3. No Need To Change – I like who I am, I don’t want to lose that special spark, I’m improving slowly, aren’t I…
  4. No need to improve – It’s happening slowly, I ‘ve got this I just need some time, I will be able to eventually…
  5. No Error – You can’t fail if you don’t try…
  6. No need to put in the effort – I’m tired it’s late I’ve put in so much time already…
  7. No need to designate time or to organize oneself – I can’t, I’ve tried before, I just don’t trust myself…

So I know my parents will see this; a bit of exposure therapy for myself today.

Something About Disinhibiting Myself

I’ve spent quite a bit of time thinking through what to write on this post, shooting down my own ideas and all that, but that is the reason I’ve been trying to become less inhibited (at least while writing these posts) as I’ve spent a lot of time thinking things over but having given myself the time to explore interesting ideas. And in my determination, I’ve decided that that’s what this blog is about; exploring ideas and the idea making process. I want to be original; I believe that to be original, I have to have bad ideas than put in than try to make them work. People, if given the time, will come up with a solution, if given enough time, will come up with similar solutions, but to come up with an original solution, I have to make a bad solution, a mistake even, into something that works. Not come up with the best way but something that works. And who knows, we may even acquire the tools that make it worthwhile or, more importantly, find a problem we can apply it too.

So this blog is an exploration of ideas or the process of creating them, the theme is changing my mind a somewhat destructive process. I have to present my ideas, my understandings, and most importantly, the thoughts(ideas, beliefs) I’m embarrassed of; to see the mistakes, the errors, the misconceptions, and the place where external circumstances caused me to be embarrassed to share an idea. To do that, I need to disinhibit myself of the fear, the self-doubt, and the social considerations; I shall first present my ideas and only then judge them. I shall make them real by writing them out and then interact with them and tweak them. This is not an easy process, well without drugs, but I want access to my creative self without needing external stimulus.

The most important point to remind myself here is that this is an exploration of my knowledge and of myself; I need to be willing to face what I find. But until I reach that point, what you see is what you get.

If tomorrow morning this still looks brilliant to me I shall begin to make it into a course on awakening your creative self. or maybe just exploring your own ideas, an extension of brainstorming the next step maybe. The people who will seek it out probably won’t be the people who need it most but they at least will make use of it.

I just thought of writing a list here because I am producing content for an audience; however, small, said audience might be. But I realized it wouldn’t line up directly with the topic of exploration; more importantly, it would be dishonest as I did it because I felt embarrassed by the above post despite how important it seems to me it seemed like less than would be expected from me. So instead, I will be willing or at least begin a habit of behavior to value my own exploration and not to stick some incomplete idea to the end.

By the way, I realized that you couldn’t comment on my posts from the main page. If you want to do so, you have to click on the title of the post to comment on the post itself. I will implement a general comments section or a discussion board eventually, but I don’t see the point at the moment because the last time I got any feedback was more than a month ago so that it wouldn’t be worth the space. (of course, I probably will get an audience faster if the structures are already in place, but I’m somewhat lazy, and I have other priorities in my life. Really I should get past the excuses so if it isn’t too complicated for me to understand I’ll get it by the end of the week)

Be In Action

I tell myself. And so I give up on making every post perfect and instead just get to getting something down for today. I should not use indecisiveness as an excuse to not get stuff done and so here is today’s self-help and all that, list. Sorry if it isn’t relevant to you but these are necessary for me so that I can keep writing the posts you come here for.

  1. Write now edit later. – when I try to edit mid-post It ends up being too late and I end up being too tired when I’m done.
  2. Have a success schedule – would have already mastered the piano piece I’m learning (Solffegieto by C.P.E Bach if you’re interested) If I practiced it systematically than just trying to improve every time I feel like sitting down.
  3. Make today’s picture – I promise for the length of this week and I’ll see If I want to continue by the end of this week. For now, I need something to hold myself accountable and I should get back into the habit of completing things.
  4. One day book reviews – Again getting things done and completed. I’ll have one of these for you by the end of the week. But only one.
  5. Wake up at 8:30, pray, eat, walk the dog, exercise, piano, blog – Getting back to the basics start the day getting things done. something to work on, piano, something complete (hopefully), blog post.
  6. Done this is it for now – I said In Action but what I need is complete. Just one more thing.
  7. Reread my previous posts. Where am I not taking my own advice? Why do I need to rethink or renew any of my past ideas? I could make a whole post about this…
Possibly my worst one yet.
I had no clue what I wanted to do and didn’t bother trying to get close to a vision.
Played around for twenty-minutes learned to do a thing and this is what came out.

Way’s I Can Make People Smile

So what I learned from the last post is that rambling posts help me work through my own issues they aren’t very popular as daily’s1. Or maybe not anyway’s here’s a post for today.

This is not an easy post for me to make right now but I want to make a difference and this is one way to do it (working to make people smile more, writing a post about it is just an early step).

  1. Sharing good jokes
  2. Write uplifting comedy and other content then filter through it and share what is appropriate and good
  3. Play games and assist in leisure
  4. Use comedic wordplay to assist in learning and retention
  5. Give good advice
  6. Going for walks seems to work
  7. Allowing them to share
  8. Being open so that people can distract themselves
  9. Share in their hobbies and passions
  10. Post a higher quality of comedic posts (I will eventually[not never but I am putting other things first])
  11. Share in my success
  12. Comfort through their failures
  13. Give good well thought out gifts
  14. Bringing snacks to social events
  15. Bringing different snacks the next time so that the people who couldn’t have the first snacks for various diet reason can share in these
  16. Being a good example and trying to help

1That or that weekends are high-points attention I should graph that out and see if it beeing the weekend could truly have that much effect. Also, I should track if they are recurring visitors and on what day’s do people normally discover my blog. Regardless yesterday’s post had a grand total of 3 views so I can’t actually make an accurate assessment. I theorize nonetheless

Dealing With Death (Badly)

Well, I discovered last Thursday that M, the Person I was visiting in the old age home, died. Well, stoicism and thankfulness so I made the birthday post and tried not to think about it. The birthday post’s success actually is what is driving me to write this as It was my most popular post to date and showed that there is (probably) some interest in my more personal content.

The purpose of this post is for me to come to some closure. While I wasn’t as connected to M. as I could have been and his death won’t have any major impact on my life. I still feel a hole in the world where he was. It reminds me of my grandfather in a way as I watched them waste away. But in M’s case, the had seemed to have reached a plateau and was still doing what he could to help around in the old age home (he showered and changed his roommates diapers for god’s sake), I didn’t expect him to go and having “see you next week” turn into a “he’s dead” was incredibly jarring.

Now that is the main point really the thing which bothers me the most is that I feel like I never got to conclude anything. Why it reminded me of my grandfather and the classmate who (I barley knew but still) died in a car crash. I never really got to say goodbye there was simply a feeling of one day the person is simply not there anymore. With no peace to make I simply shared in others grief, I felt disconnected and mortal and wonder if any of my actions regarding them ever really meant anything.

And there I’m being selfish. When someone died it was always about what I could have done, or didn’t do, or how I factored into it. And the truth is despite a bit of comfort I provided I didn’t really. And that’s where it truly affects me. I should have been able to help somehow, There should be something I can do and seeing another’s story end with me being unable to do anything about it, That is something I struggle with for the longest period of time what I could have done but didn’t.

Regardless life moves on and I hope to provide less depressing content for you tomorrow and I wish you the very best.

10 Reasons Why I Should Hold Myself Accountable

The how is very helpful but sometimes you need the why.
Tomorrow will be reasons I shouldn’t just to be even-handed.

  1. I will feel more complete at the end of the day
  2. I will be pushed to accomplish more
  3. I am more likely to do the things I want to do which take planning or preparation
  4. I can truly be honest
  5. People will trust me more.
  6. It will enable me to be more social
  7. I’ll get to bed on time
  8. I may actually finish things
  9. I will improve my musical skills more quickly
  10. I can take more projects and studies

Still pushing it off and may need to push it off an additional day (as soon as I break a promise I feel less obligated to fulfill it I’ll work on that now that I’ve pointed it out)

The Best Gift is You

10 Self-Help Programs I Can Create

I am not claiming I am perfect and have all these applied in my life. But I have consumed hundreds of hours worth of self-help information, and I have an idea that in the creation of these courses, I will find the best ways to get myself to absorb and evolve with the information, and it may help people who run into the same problems that I had/have. As such If you comment on this post if any of the programs could be of value to you and I (choosing the most commented one even if I only get one comment) will start applying the changes required for the course into my life and will create an additional weekly blog on my progress in accomplishing it and explaining the program as it forms. After using myself as a concept test I will start constructing the program in a more professional form if interest remains.

I realized after making the list that some of the entries have been made before by other people; so I cannot claim the idea as my own. But though some things online may share similar names, they will not have my special flair:

  • Single-tasking For The Takers – How to reclaim your attention Focus and Time (listing out goals is an early step)
  • Meaningful Multitasking – How best to put actions together (this works best as a sequel to the previous entry)
  • More Critical Habits – Training oneself to observe and how to learn from everything.
  • Setting Better Priorities – So you can rightfully feel accomplished at the end of the day.
  • Keeping Step – Turning learning and exercise into habits.
  • Truer Mindfulness – Meditation that works with your goals.
  • Setting Truer Goals – Probably a prerequisite to other self-help courses, this covers not just getting stuff done but also wanting to get stuff done.
  • Internal Order – Keeping a cleaner and less cluttered life.
  • Becoming Disciplined – Learning Discipline and the extreme benefits of doing 5% more.
  • Online Self-Accountability – how to use a blog to keep yourself accountable