Day 9

Hi there, I went into Tiberius this morning in order to meet M. I got there early so I waited till they were done with there morning activity before going in, there is a park right next door, and when I went in to visit M. he said he wasn’t interested in talking so I caught the next bus home. when I got home the air conditioner people arrived so I was spent some time helping them and moving stuff out of the way. By the time we were done, it was 3:30. Then I played with Manu a bit and I didn’t get much else done after that.

Ten Uses of a Paperclips:

  • Lockpick
  • Making figurines
  • Holding together creative origami (use it to poke a hole through the problem areas and bending it to hold them together)
  • New age earings
  • Hair clips
  • removing certain screws
  • Marble maze
  • Making weighing scales for light objects
  • Spray bottle unclogger
  • Fingernail cleaner
  • Book mark
  • Small chain

Day 8

Howdy there, recently I’ve realized that I haven’t been thinking about my future in a productive manner, heck I’ve barely been thinking of the future at all. And still, when I try to plan something out I don’t know where to start. I’ve made list after list after list but as the entries hold no priority over each other I still get stuck in the choosing. Now to get away from my excuses. The main benefits I get from being lost are not having to interact with strangers too much, a certain freedom from being held accountable, and a fear of changing (this fear of changing is at constant odds with my desire to become More). I’m working on putting these aside but having an obvious path may help with some temporary goals and should be a high priority. A big step in the right direction would be getting back to my Simplology and making sure to do a full consecutive 30 days of the white belt training before moving forward to actually build the habit and not just claim to have tried it.

Today’s list of ten I made this list because I realized that despite not wanting many things for there own sake I still really like things.

Ten things I Would like to Experiment with (this gives me a reason for wanting money which further encourages me to get things done {my belief is that I know enough about money and monetization that if I’m productive enough I will be able to transform that into money [not necessarily a lot of money but enough] using the Internet}):

  • Various sets of flat polarized lenses that filter different amounts and wavelengths of light (a pair of each)
  • Springs a whole lot of them and things I can connect them with (possibly lego if they ever did something of the sort)
  • A whole lot of pistons
  • A high-quality electronic piano
  • An Arduino set (works best with the pistons)
  • Clasps and clamps and other ways of holding things together (I almost forgot but these are important)
  • A 3d printer
  • A high-quality printer that prints on cardstock
  • Filters, pipes, pumps, and other tools I can use and understand the flow of liquids
  • An indoor Hydroponics system (for science and strawberries)

Ten Questions Everyone Should Ask Themselves

Salutations fellow Homo-sapiens, it is I. Today was (still is while I’m writing this) a fast day and I used that as an excuse to not get anything done, well I practiced some piano sight-reading and I did a few of my exercises but I wasn’t working towards any of my pre-defined goals when I did them. So here I am it’s almost seven and I haven’t yet posted anything. Yesterday was Saturday, and seeing as I’m a religious jew, I hadn’t posted and don’t include that within my posting every day (maybe I’ll post Sunday morning but I’m not guarantying anything).

Unrelated note (opening of a new topic may never mention again and doesn’t even get more than 2 sentences); yesterday I got Manu to start reading a book (he still reading it as type this out) and intend to make him into an avid reader.

While listening to my British history podcast today the podcast host mentioned archeology and how in many cases, such as religious buildings, it is impossible for us to figure out how what happened and what the religious practices and beliefs actually were. This point reminded me of a conversation I had with a friend yesterday about discrepancies, incredibly minor ones like the loss of a vav or the size of a letter, in different edot versions of the Tanach and how Rabbis try to deal with such problems and if we can truly ever discover which one is the historical Tanach or if it was lost to history.

So here for my list of ten, I’m taking one of my father’s suggestion and…

Ten Questions Everyone Should Ask Themselves:

  • What do I justify to myself by partaking in X self-destructive behavior?
  • Do I actually want to be the person I pretend to be in my head (or the sum of my thoughts) if so why aren’t I? and if not what can I do to think differently? (in this case, start by internally disproving yourself every time said unwanted thought comes up)
  • Why did I just think that? (ask yourself this often)
  • Is what I’m doing important or urgent?
  • What can I do, and what can I get rid of, so that fewer urgencies are getting in my way?
  • What can I do to improve myself within the framework of existing habits(for example if you have a habit of checking {insert social media platform(s) of personal choice here}, then you can post things on said {social media platform} that will encourage you to act in accordance with current goals, or you can make contacts on said {social media platform} hold you accountable to what is important to you)
  • what habits do I have which are purely detrimental? and what can I do to change them (It’s hard to just drop habits forever)
  • What am I thankful for? What should I be thankful for? What can I be thankful for? (ask yourself this daily thankfulness is incredibly good for your spiritual and social health)
  • What is needed to convince me that I’m wrong? and what do I dismiss without thinking through?
  • Why am I tired at this moment? (go through the previous questions when this comes up some of them will help you actually find an answer)

Sorry this is a day late I forgot to press the Publish button

Day six list one

Salutations relatives of varying degrees, I’ve been planing on putting my composition together, but I have more variations on the base theme then I know what to do with. the plan is to have someone (probably Manu) sit down as I play variants of the composition and let me know how they come across. I’ve already vacuumed today and I’ve been alternating Hannon piano exercises with pushups, for each set of three Hannons I’ve been doing five pushups.

I’m taking my father’s suggestion of making a 10 ideas list to fill up space in my blog.

10 tasks/exercises that will be more fun, or more effective, if I mix them with something else (I know the list is vague but it wasn’t easy to come up with enough entries {as you can tell by the pointless meta-comment used to waste time as I tried to think of more entries}):

  • My sight-reading exercises with jumping jacks, 1 to 15.
  • Psoas with running, 20min to 15min.
  • Math but every 10 minutes I do one of the following exercises in any order, 10 pushups, 2 sets of running up and down the stairs, 15 jumping jacks, 4 pullups, etc(this list is currently incomplete and probably will remain so forever).
  • Blogging with learning a piano piece, for each paragraph 15min piano.
  • listening to music before writing out pieces of my composition, specifically music which does what I’m trying to accomplish.
  • listening to music after writing out pieces of my composition, specifically music I want to be distinct from, can be the music I listened to before but can also be something with a different feel that I’m getting to close to.
    • the previous 2 entries are translatable to non-music-related subjects, but that’s where I am right now.
  • watching educational videos in various subjects before making my list of ten, so that my list can be about ideas and questions regarding said subjects and not be as vague and difficult to make as this one.
    • and here is the meta-comment (which is a meta-(meta)-comment {which is a meta-(meta-{meta})-comment [which… *closes an infinite number of parentheses* and as such is an infinitely regressive loop. Anyway’s back to the list.
  • get deeper into subjects while studying for the פסיכומטרי. I have more than enough time before the test that I can really develop an understanding of the subjects I’m supposed to know.
  • walk the dog after going to pray in the morning.
  • set up my Simplology to include both tasks/exercises that I do together for both a greater sense of accomplishment and to remind myself to get these done

I realized today how the quote: “Most people overestimate what they can do in one year and underestimate what they can do in a year” is relevant to the important vs urgent distinction. I’m not sure how to explain said connection so I will it to you to think about.

Love (in a totally cool familial way) Ilan Meir Herz.

Day five

Hello to all you good people, I said daily so here it is. I’ve been a little lonely recently so I’m thinking about what social contexts I can involve myself in. I went into Tiberius today and met with M. but didn’t draw much from the conversation.

Sorry for the compressed post today but I’ve been having a lot of trouble filling this in. Honestly, I expect to get better with practice but that is the only reason I’ve posted today.

meta-(meta-{meta})

Greetings fellow humans, today I too vegged having gone to sleep far too late last night. My religious studies kinda got distracted with the Rabbi’s discussions of if Balaam slept with his donkey, seeing as unlike others who rode horses he seemed to take a donkey everywhere despite being rich and famous among other details, and my fingers were too sore to do my Piano exercises. I did finally get to 10 pushups in a sitting though.

On the other hand last night I think I figured out the complete structure of my first composition so all I have left to do is compare it to my previous versions, compile and print it. I’ve been having trouble finding what to write here recently but so since I am new to this I will try at least one Big post every week. Greeting father and goodbye (in a literal sense and not a dramatic one. I would have left it as planned but I thought that it might seem a little suicidal and that’s not what I was trying to communicate, and yes I think about things like this far too often. But otherwise, I would not be able to act in a social context at all [and there I go rewriting and correcting sentences again{there I go adding parentheses to correct my self again <I’d wonder how far I can take this meta-(meta-{meta})-commentary (because a blog itself is a commentary on one’s own life and I use parentheses in order to comment on this blog so each comment, and meta-comment, is going deeper into and yet farther form the base communication) > } ] ).

Day three

Greetings Whereveryoube, I’ve met with M. again today and he talked about the antisemitism he experienced in his youth and how Jewdism, specifically what he learned in the psalms, got him through his thought of suicide in his childhood. I tried to start a conversation with another Old person there (in Hebrew of course) but I didn’t get a response to my conversation starter so I left it at that. other than that I tried finding as many shortcuts into downtown Tiberius as I could. Anyways I’m still mulling over everything I discussed with M. and by the time I will write down what I learned it will already be integrated into my existing models of the world.

I haven’t much else to write out today so I will cut this short here with love to my Loving Father and all my family who out there.

Biblical ramblings

Hello, interwebs, While I’ve promised myself I would blog every day but I’ve been having trouble organizing my thoughts in any communicable fashion. As such I decided that the best thing to do would be to ignore grammar stop trying to correct myself by rewriting every sentence and just write as if I’m rambling to myself, let’s see how that turns out (and I seem to not be doing that well since I just stopped to download a grammar app). But anyway I was thinking about the role of man in my biblical model of the world, I may explain my many models of the world in a future post.

In the (Jewish) Bible (as that is what I will be referring to when I say Bible) there are many cases when holy people are challenged to obey God’s commands, Abraham in the Binding of Isaac, and Moses when he is punished for hitting the rock instead of speaking for it. And yet we are named Am-Israel, the nation of the one who wrestled with God, and both Abraham and Moses are shown as moral paragons in cases in which they disagreed with god’s plan. for Abraham when he tried to convince God not to destroy Tsdom and for Moses when after the sin of the Golden calf, he refused God’s offer to destroy Israel and make a nation out of him. for me to make sense of this I tried to think how the Biblical God as an omnipotent and omniscient moral absolute could in any way be less capable than his human followers. and then it hit me God has given us free will and as such forgone any power in changing our decisions, a theme raised in this weeks Parsha in the existence of Balaam a Wicked prophet, one chosen by God to lead his people that instead of leading them to good led them to wickedness. And how only we have the ability to alter each other’s decisions giving us a chance to choose again and change our ways. Abraham and Moses in the above-mentioned cases were arguing for humans who in Abraham’s case if there were even 10 holy people in Tsdom they would have been given a chance to choose again, and in Mose’s place, he was the one with the power and influence over the people of Israel.

Day one

Hello world (hi Aba), today after my piano lesson in Tveria I walked over to a old people home and the experience was a little depressing. Most of the people I saw there reminded me of Saba near the end as, while they smiled when I greeted them in passing, so happy to be noticed, they were seated there in what I could only describe as a sate of melancholy it felt like they were waiting to die. After wandering around for a few minutes the staff directed me to M., in there words he would be happy to have someone he could speak English with. M. talked to me about his life but I don’t yet have a complete picture.